Upon hearing the news of the job, we tried to lower our bills in any way we could, so we bit the bullet and joined the 21st century and got smart phones.
How could upgrading your phone save you money?
It actually did.
By heading over and getting WalMart Family Mobile, it actually brought our bill down at least $10 a month, some months twice as much as that, so that makes our average savings $180 a year.
Plus, there’s the apps.
Any Ebay seller lives to hear the “cha-ching” of their notifier, letting them know that they just made a sale. The first time mine cha-chinged, I squealed like a little girl at Christmas.
I’ve added many helpful apps, but of course two of the very first were a bible and a devotional. I just dove in and grabbed one, but it was obviously divinely chose, as God helped me with a struggle that I was just beginning to have and knew nowhere to turn to for answers,
It seems like when you turn toward God in a moment of crisis, Satan works ever so much harder to push doubts and irrational fears into your every thought. Every day that went on while my Dad was ill, he would have a good day, where he’d be asking to eat, asking for coffee, asking questions about family members and the like, giving us all hope that we were headed toward rehab and home. The next day we’d come back to him being moved back to ICU status and another surgery scheduled. We’d send out requests for everyone to pray for him, then the questions and frustrations began to creep in.
Luke 12:7– But even the very hairs of your head are all numbered.
Jeremiah 29:11 — For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
If God already knows what is going to happen to you, what is the point of prayer? He sits and tells you in one moment that he will give you everything you answer as long as you ask, and yet, if his plans are for you to lose this person from your like, do you think he’s going to change his mind for you. or is he just lying?
These thoughts were manic in my mind for weeks. I asked a few of my family members, my Sunday School teachers, but never really got the answer my heart was seeking,
Fast-forward to my apps again.
I was sitting in the hospital room, and I was sitting quietly on the sofa while Mom and Dad visited. I got out my phone and decided to seek some solace in scripture. I opened up my Daughters of the King app, right to When You Pray For Your Friends.
The first sentence? “And the LORD turned the captivity of Job, when he prayed for his friends: also the LORD gave Job twice as much as he had before” Job 42:10. I was hooked. While the route to the message had nothing to do with my questions and struggles, it brought me to the same conclusion:
When Job prayed for his friends, the Lord turned his situation around. God gave him twice as much wealth as he had before. It is the Lord that will turn things around for you when you wise up and do what big girls do. As you pray, God will bless you richly with a release and will turn things around for you.
I held on and waited to the answer I needed to go on. And it came. It always does. I noticed my prayers changing from saving him to helping my Mom come to terms with the path that was beginning to clear out before us. The main request from our hearts became to assure us that both Mom and Dad had been saved, so we know that we’ll be together again soon.
And guess what?
God does answer prayers.
Just like He says.
About the last 24 hours:
Waking blood Sugar this morning:
Blood Sugar after dinner:
168 (not bad for a white carb dinner!)
I made fresh pasta sauce from a ton of fresh veggies I got at the Farmer’s Market right before Dad passed. I didn’t want them to go to waste – second batch on tap for tomorrow!
kicking the nasusea after its hold on me all day – thank you Jesus!
I have always heard that once you fall all the way down, as far into the depths that you can can go, the only way you have to look and to aim for is up.
We all know those depths.
It can come in waves of despair over finances, over relationships. It can come as feelings of your health deteriorating and so much more.
The direction of hope, of faith and mercy. The direction we lift our weary eyes to in hopes of feeling assurance from our heavenly father, to feel the love we seem to somehow be missing out on at that time.
Of course as a growing child of God, I’ve learned to let go and let God, just as we are instructed to over and over in the bible.
Come to me, all you that labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. – Matthew 11:28
Cast your burden on the LORD, and he shall sustain you: he shall never suffer the righteous to be moved. – Psalm 55:22
But its always been one thing,
One thing at a time.
A lost job.
A bad relationship.
Is that truly trusting God with your life?
Little did I know that this was shaping up to be the year we will find out!
It all started the last week of March, when Randall comes in and tells me he has lost his night job. I felt like the example of a true Christian – I told him that God answered our prayers – that even though we’d have less money on paper, we were gaining so much more. I knew God had this and never blinked and eye. I watched things fall into an order and never looked back, nor do I plan to if things look shaky, because God is in control.
That same week, my nephew totaled his car on the way to school. No one was hurt by the grace of God. Here comes acceleration. Down
The first Friday of April, the phone call came. Dad had fallen and needed to go to the hospital. The next seven weeks and five days were filled with frustration, confusion, stress and fear that I can get into some other time. It all came to a head when the hero of my girlhood drew his last earthly breath on Wednesday morning, May 20th, at about 5:20 in the morning,
I spent every night from April 3rd on sleeping anywhere from 3 to 4 hours, forcing myself into an exhaustion like I’ve never felt. I have steadily become weaker and sicker. I’m looking up.
So, here I am. A broken, fatherless woman who sets, ashamed of the effort that she’s made to keep her house a home, the jobs of wife and mother that she’s done. It was the first time in a while since I’d seen either of my sisters, and felt pitied by them both. I love my sisters, but I hate pity. I’m looking up.
It’s time to surrender my all to my Lord and let him make me all He has intended. Its time to let everyone else see it happen and use this platform as my testimony. I want others to follow along, to see how things change, how much more blessed my family and I will be. I’m going to have Prayer Requests for my family and I, should you be a prayer warrior. If you are not, who knows – you may become by the end of this.
So, welcome, to my family journey, There will be tears and trials, treasures and triumphs, and I look forward to every minute of it!
About the last 24 hours:
Waking blood Sugar this morning:
Randall sent me this link on FB yesterday out of the blue, just to make me smile.
Thank you Lord, for such a sweet, loving husband.
Hellllllllllllllooooooooooooo out there! I’m not sure if I even have anyone left who will see this, but I feel the need after all of this time, to reach out and just see.
Wow, who would have ever thought that after nearly seven months of silence that I would be typing on here again. There is no point in even trying to cover all that has happened in the days and weeks that I stayed to myself, but will share a few highlights.
Am I still selling on Ebay? Yes! In fact, we even found a fabulous niche and currently doing quite well. That was the good news. The bad news? We lost our supplier today. I wouldn’t say its back to square one – after all, I’ve learned a lot in all of these months, and I am thankful for that. I’ve missed the thrill of the hunt for hidden gems buried in the dust at an estate sale, or in a crummy little lot on an online auction, so I’m kind of excited about getting into that again. But I’m going to miss the steady sales for now. I know that God will bless us with new avenues as long as we keep plugging away.
Daniel turned 8 a few weeks ago. He decided he wanted the theme of his party to be Grumpy Cat. Here is my feeble attempt at a grumpy cat cake….in case you need a good laugh:
I hadn’t been cooking as much – we had been eating out far too much, which probably contributed to the next piece of news I’m sharing. A week ago, I was diagnosed with Type II Diabetes and Hypothyroidism. I started meds last week, and hopefully will get them balanced over the next few weeks, so that I can get to feeling better and get some of this weight off. I started another blog chronicling my journey, that I will share at some point on here, should you want to follow along. I also plan on experimenting with new recipes, low carb mostly. I’ve got one in the slow cooker for dinner tonight and I hate to say it, but it smells amazing! Ill be happy to share them, if y’all want.
Anyway, that is where we stand, and I do hope you’ll have me back!